Hello Beautiful Trauma Survivors!

 

If you have found your way to this blog, then you are probably new to my story and who I am.  I am a mother of a young son, an advocate for adoption reform and agains abuse in the foster and adoption constellation.  I am active on TikTok @madwill240 and instagram @madisunchambersrothllc I am far from perfect. 

I am a young mother, 26 is still young I think, and in the years it took me to get here I have walked through hell, through pain, suffering and neglect.  Broken relationships and a broken marriage along the way.  If I can keep going, and pushing forward, so can you! 

Severely afflicted with severe trauma disorders including C-PTSD, I have struggled to find balance, acceptance and grace for myself, often giving in to the panic, fear and depression along the way.  I have learned over time, that it is OKAY to not be okay, but it is not okay to make that the project of others to fix.  Only you can fix you, and sometimes even you are not going to be enough for yourself, and that is okay too.

Building support networks of people who have walked through the same kinds of struggles can be infinitely more helpful than you realize.  For example, I thought I was the only one who had a terrible adoptive mother who rehomed me 3 times (she only admits to 2) and was so physically, emotionally, psychologically and sexually abusive that I thought there must not be a more evil, vile human on this earth.  When I started connecting with other adoptees, I found out that I could not be more wrong!  So many of us had walked parallel paths, and while we were children then and unable to reach out and find each other, we are adults now and the connection has saved so many of us, with validation alone. 

These realizations, experiences and recognitions have come with a price, the price has been suffering, loneliness, anger and grief.  I do not know if that kind of anger ever fades, but I do know that I can use that anger and grief to grow, research, learn and support each and every one of you, because, if you have found this obscure little blog, you surely need some of what I have to offer. 

I may not be rich, famous or even well known, yet, but I am here to listen, advise, refer and help.  I am not a therapist, I am not a counselor.  I am someone who has walked through hell and made it back, and I want to show you all how to heal, grow and create a little bit of heaven right where you are, who you are and without compromising your own internal compass.  

I am not religious, so I won't indoctrinate you.  I am not anti religion, so if you are religious I will not change your mind.

Walking through neglect, abuse, abandonment, betrayal, fear, and so much more as a child, was a surprisingly weak and unstable base to build from as an adult, I am dedicated to creating a world where less and less of us experience this type of pain, helplessness and fear as we grow into adults, and rise tiny humans of our own making into adults as well.  

We are the future, so we have a say in it.  Let's start acting like that is a fact and not an obscure, unlikely saying that is just thrown around carelessly.