Motivation

 



I was told 

I am too mobile

Too motivated

Too successful

To be disabled.


Why yes,

I am motivated,

But who's scale of success?

I am broke,

I am struggling,

Every job I get,

I lose to this chronic pain.


Physically,

I am broken into a 

Million feelings and experiences

Pain, agony, swelling and a weird 

New development last year.


Losing consciousness is 

Terrifying

Awful and worry some

But they can't figure out the WHY so

These doctors slap on labels that don't really fit.


SO how, then, do I find motivation?


I am a mother to a perfect little boy.

I am a protector and provider,

I refuse to lay down and quietly die, 

I am a sister, daughter, friend and lover.


So many rely on me, 

To be present, 

Care,

Love,

Protect and adore

Them.


This is my Motivation.


 



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