Accepting help can be exceptionally hard when you have a past of neglect, abuse, blame or in general not feeling heard. You know that I have had a hard past, but did you know I never stopped begging for help? I asked therapists, doctors, lawyers, police, my other parent, my older sister and many others. Some used this to harm me more (childhood sexual assault by a martial arts instructor) and others really tried to help, but nothing was ever really done to fix the issues. My abuser was SO good at spinning the narrative as a healthy family with a sick child and making the issues in the home all my fault. So many people believed her and so many people still believe her. What can I do to change that besides speak my truth right? Well this IS my truth and no-one else's. I will tell my side and use my voice, because for so long I was silenced. I was not perfect (who is) nor am I now. I know my trauma brain minimizes and maximizes parts of the ...
